The Fear of Failure

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“It is impossible to live without failing at something, unless you live so cautiously that you might has well not have lived at all, in which case you have failed by default.” –J.K. Rowling


        It has always struck me as interesting, that in my life and the lives of others there is such a pervasive fear of failure. Of course I think this is largely a natural reaction. No one wants to fail. Why? It’s because it hurts; it maws our confidence and shatters our hopes of success and accomplishment. However this fear also reminds us of failure–and even the slightest potential of it–whenever we embark upon something new. It paralyzes us in monotony and keeps us from doing anything at all for the simple fact that: we don’t want to fail. So we try with everything within us to avoid this failure. Often times this means that we simply don’t do anything at all because we perceive it to be too risky. This feeling has prevailed in my life for many years and I believe that it exists in many others’ as well. Society has become failure adverse–or rather, we have forgotten that failure can often times be the foundation for success.

        That is not to say that we should strive for failure. Rather we should be striving for success. However somewhere along the way there will be a point where we may fail. It’s in these times that we need to remind ourselves of our goal and drive away any discouragement we may have. Failure is not the end and ultimately I think there is something so profound in the statement. How many actors would there be if they had given up when they messed up a line, or missed an action, or struggled to get into character? How many authors would there be if they had given up after the first time their book was declined, either by a agent or a publisher? How many people would’ve been successful at all had they not pushed through their failure? Not a single one. Even Thomas Edison, when creating the light bulb, failed. It took him ninety-nine tries before he finally figured it out. It took him ninety-nine times to succeed. But he still, ultimately, succeeded.

        Success is not precluded nor overshadowed by failure. Many times failure is actually a new avenue for success. Take the Edison example above. Though he failed ninety-nine times these failures helped him to eventually achieve success. Although light bulbs have changed over the centuries, if it weren’t for Edison’s perseverance through failure and the invention of the first light bulb, he may never have succeeded at all. The point is that the only true failure in life is not failure itself, but being paralyzed by the thought of failure; to a point where one remains in apathy. An apathy not necessarily generated by laziness, but rather the apathy that comes from fear. Doing nothing is defeat itself. We always have to remember that failure is not the antithesis to success, it’s simply the process of working toward it.

       In the picture above the landscape is being consumed by a looming wall of fog. I felt the picture appropriate because fear can be like that wall of mist. It rolls over the beautiful forest beneath keeping it locked and suppressed underneath its stifling cloak. It makes us fumble and lose our way to the point where we can’t get out. We’re so afraid of letting others share in the beauty of that forest because we’re worried they won’t like it at all. So often times many have kept that fog over their forests. But today it’s time to throw out the fear of failure. Today, it’s time to let that forest’s beauty shine to the world.

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The Things I Didn’t Realize about the Journey of Writing

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“Literature adds to reality, it does not simply describe it. It enriches the necessary competencies that daily life requires and provides; and in this respect, it irrigates the deserts that our lives have already become.”

— C.S. Lewis


      About a year ago I started to write my first book. I’ve always enjoyed experiencing different stories and being able to know the various characters within them. The ability to see from another’s perspective and by extension experience a different word has always been fascinating to me. I think, in retrospect, that this is what helped me to begin writing and what has continued to help me appear before the page day after day. Even in the moments when my prose seems as muddled as a trough full of mud and the words refuse to grace me with their benevolent presence. There is something so magical about being lost within the world of my characters that is irreplaceable by anything I’ve ever had the pleasure of doing. And though there are times that I am frustrated and my patience wears thin, ultimately this journey of writing has been one of the most meaningful things that I’ve done in my life. As I come to about the halfway point in my second book (of which is actually the first in the series, ironically) I can’t help but look back on all the things that I didn’t realize when starting out to become a writer.

 1. Writing is a Commitment

     When I started writing, I don’t think I understood the time that it takes and the amount of perseverance it requires. Though I enjoy writing, there are days when I’d rather be anywhere else but mulling over the frustrated words and tired sentences of my prose. It’s always tempting for me to open my web browser and start surfing the net or to get lost listening to music. Sometimes, admittedly, I’ve even made excuses to myself thinking, “Maybe the next episode of this show will help me to find the right words to say.” Of course I soon realized that this strategy is…not very effective. It was rather delusional in fact. For in reality it was just an excuse to avoid the fact that writing that day was harder than most.

      Writing is hard work and sometimes it can be difficult to stay motivated. It has taken me time and a lot of introspection to understand and come to terms with the fact that writing is a commitment. I always have to remind myself of this when I find myself struggling over what words to say. I have to remind myself that the greatest things in life are often hard to achieve. I have to remind myself of my love for writing and my love for stories. I am constantly reminded of the reality of being a writer. It’s not easy, like I thought it would be, and sometimes I feel like I’m at the end of a long marathon. Out of breath with my joints and muscles aching with a smidgen of rebellion in their hurting pleas. Except I’m not running. Rather my mind is tired and my words are worn scraps of what they used to be. It is only by remembering my commitment to writing and to my craft that I can muster what little perseverance remains in me to continue forward.

2. Writing is not Perfection

     This was one of the hardest things for me to drill into my head. Being the perfectionist that I am, I was always unhappy with my writing and felt it lacking. I still do sometimes. I’ll even admit that I’m always working to better my writing and grow as an author. You see I’m not perfect. So by that definition neither will my writing ever be. For perfection cannot result from a flawed creator. There are many times when I sit down to write and the sentences that result are nothing but utter gibberish. On the other hand, sometimes I sit down and my writing is everything I want it to be and more. If I’m honest with myself and you as the reader, that’s just how writing is. Perfection is not an option in writing nor will it ever be. Certainly I always try to improve and make my prose the best it can be. At the same time however, there will always be those sentences that don’t flow well or the paragraphs that are unnecessary. That’s what editing is for and even then, it isn’t always possible to make everything just perfect every single time. As authors, realizing this simple fact helps us to write. If we were always worried about whether our prose was perfect we would never be able to finish. Then by the very definition it would never even be close to perfect because it doesn’t yet exist.

3. Skill is not Perfection

     Okay, I know I already touched on perfection. However I felt that this deserved its own section largely because it has always been a major point for me. I always used to think that to be skillful at something I had to make it perfect. I soon found that not only is this thought an unobtainable reality, it’s also not the case. I have a sang that I wrote for myself on a sheet of paper I keep tucked within the front cover of my bible. It largely reminds me of this very fact but it also defines what I feel skill to be. That is: Skill is not perfection. Rather, it is the dedication to one’s craft that perseveres even when it turns out to be no more than mere rubbish. For if we had perfection then we wouldn’t need skill. And skill can only come from refining natural ability through experience and even, sometimes, failure.  

     Over this past year I have learned, often times by experience, how hard writing can be. It’s difficult for everyone at one time or the other. However it is also one of the most rewarding things one can experience. It takes dedication and perseverance, but ultimately it’s something that is inexplicably amazing. In the next post I will be continuing the list from this post. I hope it will help all of you in some way; whether you’re a writer or not. Until then!


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Thank you once again for taking the time to read my post!! It means a lot to me as a writer and as a blogger. As always if there are any ways I can improve or if you have something to comment you can do so in the comment’s section below. Thanks!

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A Road to Somewhere–Anywhere other than Nowhere

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Everybody, no matter who they are or where they’re going, has a dream. Some want to be artists, some want to be writers (guilty as charged), and others want to be musicians. There are an unending amount of dreams that one can have. We’re all unique and that’s what ultimately makes us so special. Yet so many times people fail to follow these dreams–even worse, they don’t even start up the pathway. They depart down the road of life and realize they’re on the road to nowhere.

Now don’t get me wrong. I’m not saying that you should quit your job and risk everything for the sake of your dream. Although  a romantic ideal, it’s a pathway that will often times lead to more harm than good. What I am saying however, is that each of us Continue reading

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